I know...

 It's been over two months since I last posted here. And after my last "post" - if you can call it that way - some people, as surprisingly as it seems,were concerned abouy my sanity. But don't worry, A., that was not a suicidal note. It was just something I needed to get out of my chest at that moment, otherwise I would suffocate. But that doesn't really matter anymore, so let's go straight to the point.

 These past two months have been, well, messed up, to say the least. I'm with double, or rather saying, triple journey: school, Unificado and studying at home. I haven't had time for reading or writing, so forgive me if this post is poorly written.

 I knew, before I started this year as a "vestibulanda", that 2010 would be difficult. But I didn't predict I would find myself so unprepared for it. I've already lost track of how many times I freaked out this year. 

 I'm not the type of girl who's afraid of challenges. On the contrary, I love testing myself and learning from my mistakes. 

 Nevertheless, at the moment I started at my course, I realized that I'm way behind certain people. So, I have to surpass them. And that's what I've been trying to do since March.  

 Everyone says that I'm being perfectionist, freaking out for nothing. But it's not quite like that; I wish it were, believe me.

 It's true that I've improved since March 18th - the day my course started - ; however, I have to get even better. CV is all about competition. Anyone who claims otherwise is either stupid or naive.

 And I have to be a good player, a very good one indeed. Which scares me.

 I hope my absence has been reasonably justified.

 Hope to see you soon...And that it's all worth the effort in the end.

Xoxo